Our Thoughts…

From much of the reading I’ve done lately on the subject of depression and anxiety, it seems there’s a direct correlation between our thoughts and symptoms.

But, I think when you struggle with anxiety, thoughts seem to come upon you as an uninvited guest.

I also know, if you have too much time on your hands, you can obsess and ruminate on your problems and health.

A godly friend of mine and counselor told me to stay busy and don’t ruminate on your health.

Distract yourself in a good way.

I love to study and read. So I try to use my time, either to read, write or listen to sermons. This greatly helps!

Or, I will tackle my wives “Honey do” list! Remember, thoughts can induce anxiety. This is why it’s important to meditate on godly and pure things.

Whenever you start feeling that tug and tingling feeling in your gut, just change your thinking to those pleasing things of the Lord.

Philippines 4:8

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Blessings

Jeff

Here is my daily SUPPLEMENT PLAN to hammer Anxiety and Depression…(It works!)

Supplements and Herbs for anxiety and depression:

My daily routine:

Morning: ON EMPTY STOMACH

* 1000 mgs Beta Glucan Elite
* 800 mgs L-THEANINE w/passion flower (Bronson’s Brand)
* 500 mgs Magnesium GNC
* 1200 mgs Ashwaganda (KSM-66)
* 5000 mcgs B12 drops
*500 mgs Taurine (Now brand)
* 1 vile dropper Nano glutathione

Breakfast:

Garden of life organic meal replacement shake.

*Mixed in one cup of organic frozen blueberries

*One scoop of organic green powder.

*One teaspoon of organic beet powder

* One banana

* Handful of organic spinach

* Scoop of ice

* Teaspoon of inositol powder (Now Brand)

Mix together and make smoothie

Take these supplements after you drink shake

* I dropper of Lemon balm
* 2 caps of probiotics for stomach
* 4000 iu of vitamin D
* 500mgs potassium
* Organic multivitamin
* 500 mgs holy basil ( New Chapter brand for Anxiety) amazing stuff.
* 1200 mgs fish oil Omega 3,6,9

After lunch:

Take..

800 mgs L Theanine
500 mgs magnesium
500 mgs Taurine

After dinner

500 mgs holy basil
1200 mgs of Omega 3,6,9 (Metrx brand)

I hour Before bedtime

800 mgs of L Theanine.

Purpose in our Suffering…

“I am the subject of depressions of spirit so fearful that I hope none of you ever get to such extremes of wretchedness as I go to.’”

“Personally I know that there is nothing on earth that the human frame can suffer to be compared with despondency and prostration of mind.”

—Charles Haddon Spurgeon

The one thing that separates us from the world when we go into the grips and depths of depression, is Hope.

The Bible is clear on that subject, that God himself has ordained our ordeals and uses those moments to transform us more into the image of His Son.

This means that our suffering has a purpose.

Without a purpose attached to our pain, everything is meaningless and hopeless.

This is why the world is in so much despair, because they cannot put an anchor on their pain, on the darkness, on their hopelessness, on their sin.

When trying times come, or we find ourselves in those moments of despair, we have Christ the anchor of our soul.

I know for myself, the experience is real. When I was in the throes of agonizing depression and anxiety, it was Christ in whom I looked to, it was Christ in Whom I rested in, it was Christ where I drew my strength, it was Christ who brought me through it all.

Those moments when we feel forgotten, hopeless, strangled by fear, we must realize that in it all of this Christ has ordained it for our good and for His glory.

There were times when the darkness was a darkness you could almost feel, it almost became claustrophobic and unrelenting.

But it was here, that I looked to the Rock of my salvation, and in the chaos, and in the confusion, in the disappointment, my Lord was there.

He was with me, He carried me through it all.

But in all of this, we must have the right perspective if we are going to grow in our adversity and in our troubling experiences.

You must be willing to submit to Christ, to submit to his word, to live in the scriptures, to seek him in prayer, to seek the fellowship of the saints, to trust in his providence and His sovereignty.

There is a purpose to your suffering.

Use the moments of your suffering as an opportunity to serve others, to look at the bigger picture and utilize these moments for the glory of God.

No two situations are identical, everybody’s experiences are different, but Christ is the same yesterday today and forever!

Go to Christ. He is always there, he will never leave you nor forsake you.

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Antidepressants vs Herbal Remedies…

For most of my life I rarely ever went to the doctor. I am now 48 years old and have never really been on any medication. I have worked out pretty much my whole life, I eat right and take lots of vitamins. But three months ago when I got blindsided with a terrible bout of depression and with overwhelming anxiety, I needed help. Anyone who has not experienced this phenomenon, does not understand. Seriously, if they understood, they would not say the the things they say. When I was convulsing in my bed, and my legs would not quit shaking, day in and day out, and nothing was working, I knew I needed to rethink some other alternatives.

I talked to my doctor, and homeopathic doctor, and they both agreed that I should take something short term until I could regain my strength and mind and work things out. So, I went on a drug called Lexapro, a small amount until I could get my body out of 4th gear. And stop the anxiety long enough to understand what else I needed to do.

I believe there are good herbal solutions out there. I use natural means as well. But I do glorify God for the common grace and blessing of modern medicine.

Anyway, just some thoughts..

Books that I have read on Depression…

I wanted to share some books that I have read on the subject of depression. Some of these books were excellent, some were not so good, and others were just terrible.

1.) Spurgeons Sorrows by Jack Eswine (Excellent!)

2.) Noonday Demon by Andrew Solomon ( very in depth, but very disturbing)

3.) Walking on water when you feel like your drowning Steve Leavitt ( EXCELLENT)

4.) Nervous breakdown by John Smith

( Okay) not great.

5.) The Depression Cure by Stephen Ilardi (Good) some strange philosophy, but practically good.

6.) Darkness Visible by William Styron ( EXCELLENT, does a great job defining the symptoms and his experience)

7.) The Anatomy of Melancholy by Robert Burton ( Spurgeon recommended)

8.) Trouble of Mind and the Disease of Melancholy by Timothy Rogers

(Puritan) These are just a few, if you have any suggestions please share!

Thank you

Jeff

Understanding Depression, Anxiety and Panic Disorder…

I’m reaching out to all those who are experiencing, or may have
experienced depression, anxiety disorder, or panic attacks.

These issues are very real, but rarely talked about, at least in public anyway. The world will openly discuss these issues, but rarely will the Christian Church do the same.

Apparently there are over 30 million Americans who suffer from some version of depression.

Even the prince of preachers Charles Spurgeon suffered from depression, he once said ” “I am the subject of depressions of spirit so fearful that I hope none of you ever get to such extremes of wretchedness as I go to.’

He also said this, *”This depression comes over me whenever the Lord is preparing a larger blessing for my ministry; the cloud is black before it breaks, and overshadows before it yields its deluge of mercy.

Depression has now become to me as a prophet in rough clothing, a John the Baptist, heralding the nearer coming of my Lord’s richer benison.

“I too have been laid low with this troubling darkness and painful fits that dare I say, can prove a man’s faith whether it be real or false.

I hear one story after another about Christians who are suffering in silence because the issue at hand has been deemed taboo amongst the sheep.

This is a crisis.

This in not a new phenomenon, depression and anguish are painted all throughout the Psalms, and many other areas in scripture.

History has a long line of records from many of those who wrestled with some sort of mental illness. We should not fear talking about this, and dealing with it.

I’m writing a new blog that hopefully will open up many opportunities to talk and discuss these issues. Whether they be remedies, ideas, prayers, or just a place to unload.

I would love the opportunity to reach out to those outside of the faith and offer Christ to their burdened lives.

For the believer, I would like to open up an opportunity to fellowship and bare one another’s burdens.

Please share this blog, and join me as we dive into troubling waters of the “Dark Night of the Soul.”

BlessingsJeff Rose

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The Dark Hole of Depression…

How do we continue the battle of life when we are in the dark hole of depression? I know for me, it was all I could do to even get out of bed. The paranoia and morning anxiety was almost too much to bare. I would just put my feet on the floor and force myself to the kitchen. I had no appetite but I knew I needed to eat something. I would gag down a piece of bread and drink a cup of water.

Then crawl back to my bed and sleep all the rest of the day. I have a big family, so it was a hard to make contact and be involved in their lives.

This made me feel guilty, and even more depressed. Just seeing my children and wife busy in the house while I laid there incapacitated was deeply disturbing.

But everyday I forced myself to get up and keep looking up. I started to go for walks and change my diet as well.

Overtime I began to crawl out of that nasty hole and begin to feel normal again. I would read my Bible at night, and pray. My church would pray for me as well. My wife would help me as much as she could. This was how I managed to live again.

Have you ever tried Holy Basil or L-Theanine for depression and ANXIETY?

The other day I woke up with some pretty bad anxiety. I searched online for some possible solutions to relieve my discomfort. I typed in ” best supplements for anxiety.” The first one that came up was L-Theanine.

So I went to the store and bought some. I also read that the herb Holy Basil was good too. So I bought them both. When I got to work my anxiety was very bad. Then to my dismay, the control panel on the wall kept setting off the alarm. Every minute the alarm would go off sending me into a deeper anxious feeling. I thought to myself, if this continues I’m quitting this job today. I reached over and took a holy basil capsule and waited.

Twenty minutes later I started feeling this calming sensation. Then about forty minutes I felt almost normal.

I was amazed. This stuff actually worked! So I experimented with stacking it together with l Theanine.

I take 600 mgs of Holy Basil by New Chapter.

600 mgs of L Theanine by Bronson that has passion flower mixed in.

Rhodiola 300 mgs by New Chapter

500 mgs of Taurine

500 mgs of magnesium

(I take all these together.)

Wait about an hour and a half and you will start to feel better. It really does work.

Do you have any remedies?

Please comment below.

Hijacked

About two months ago while driving to work, I was hijacked. Not highjacked by a person, but by a mysterious overwhelming feeling of terror. I thought I was having a heart attack. My face started to sweat, my heart rate shot up, my legs began to shake, I thought I was dying…

I went to urgent Care because it was close. I hobbled into the building and spoke with a trembling voice, ” I’m not sure what’s happening, but I feel like I’m going to faint.” I signed in and immediately went to the hospital bed where they ran a series of tests. All test came back excellent. Apparently, I wasn’t dying after all. So, they sent me home. When I got home I explained what happened to my wife. We were both bewildered. From that point on things just got worse. I was waking up in the middle of the night with a sense of terror, anxiety, fear and felt I was sinking into a dark hole. The next morning was terrible. I literally could not get out of bed. I was experiencing a terrifying wave of heat going through my body, over and over. My legs were shaking and convulsing. My world seemed disconnected to everyone else’s. I just laid there staring at the wall for hours, rehearsing in my mind that I was most certainly dying.

“There’s no way someone can feel like this and not be on their death bed,” I thought. Day in and day out, things just didn’t change. So my wife and I went to the emergency room. Once again, they ran all the tests, plus a few x-rays. The doctor told me that I was going to be ok! He thought my problem was due to too much supplements. Hmmmm. Something didn’t seem right. Something hijacked me and I knew it, I just didn’t know what it was…

My wife decided to search online about others who have experienced such phenomenon, and found some interesting leads. There were testimonials of others who were having these symptoms as well.

They defined it as a “nervous breakdown.” Or what the the medical field would call “clinical depression.”

It was a godsend to find these stories. These stories lead me to find out what it was that hijacked me, and what I needed to do. After lying in bed for two weeks, shaking like a leaf, I decided to go to the doctor.

When I got there, I told the doctor everything. She understood the issue and prescribed “Lexapro”and some anxiety medication to allow me to deal with the craziness. I started Lexapro, but did not take anxiety meds. After a month the symptoms subsided and I began to feel better.

For a few weeks I was seeing much improvement, and began doing things I use to enjoy again. Then one Friday evening while at work, I was hit by a sudden anxiety attack. This was crazy. My whole body just broke out into a massive sweat. My knees buckled. My stomach dropped like I was going down a massive hill on a roller coaster. I ended laying on the floor in the bathroom at work. I was throwing up and extremely sick. I went to the emergency room again. This time they knew what happened. It was an induced panic attack. Which really was more like another hellish breakdown. This one knocked me down for a few weeks. Now I’m slowly recovering. I have bouts with anxiety and low moods. My idea for writing this blog was to open up discussions on how we can find solutions, remedies or just a place to talk it out. I know for me, when you talk to someone who has been through this, or is going through it, it greatly helps. I am a Christian, my Savior is Jesus Christ. Without Him I could have never gotten through the darkness. I do hope this blog helps you.

Sincerely

Jeff Rose